That Kind of Guy
I often joke with people that “I am an excel kind of guy.” Whatever you are talking about seems to become more real and relatable once it falls into the neat rows and columns of a spreadsheet. Maybe that could be true for my scan results.
I know, this sounds odd coming from the pastor who spends much of life wrestling with things spiritual. Struggling to understand and live out the very ideas and truths that fail to fit into the organized columns and rows of a spreadsheet.
The tension is real. I want it all nice and neat. Let me see clearly how the data falls into line and points to a clear path forward. Reality is rarely that easy. Chaos abounds. Even those things placed into the discipline of an excel spreadsheet fall prey to disorder and unpredictability.
Today was my oncologist visit.
We were going to be reviewing my latest scans.
I saw the results a few days ago. When I first looked at them I was less than encouraged. The numbers did not add up and were showing something less than stellar results. It was pointed out to me that where the technicians were once measuring in centimeters they were now using millimeters. By itself, that change was encouraging. [Read more…]