How does one find peace amidst chaos? When turmoil reigns, anxiety rules, and worry is winning, how do we find the road to peace?
A Month of Waiting
It has been one month since I first caught a glimpse of my scan results. While no expert I have learned to interpret these results with amazing accuracy.
The past few weeks have been full of doctor’s appointments which all present a myriad of options. Each option has risk/reward which must be weighed and compared with all the other options. There is one last appointment this Friday, and then we should be able to talk of future plans with some level of confidence.
When we started this journey in 2016 there were no options. Dr. Saroha simply told me what I was going to do. In some ways I miss those simpler days. The truth is that options equals hope. Doctors who would not talk to me before, want to see me today. I have been blessed and they want to be a part of any future treatment. Even in the midst of recurring cancer…God is good!
My Journal Talks
I came across something I wrote after meeting with my spiritual director. We met Friday, August 16, 2019. As we closed our time together he invited me to live and move with the attitude and spirit of the Jesuits. Seeking first to Discern God’s invitation, Doing what was discerned wholeheartedly, and thus Finding Joy & Peace. I was struck by his words. In a very real way they put words to the way I have sought to live and move a significant portion of my life. Notice the word “sought.” I have failed miserably many times over. Yet, if I am honest, peace has come when I have moved through life in such a manner. [Read more…]